Crossroads

There comes a time in life when it’s wise to start listening to that little voice in your head. My voice, (I’ll call her Matilda) has been exceptionally chatty over the past few weeks. I feel as if my heart and mind have been standing at a crossroads, begging me to make a decision.  Turn left, go right, venture forward – just get moving, already! As it turns out, the stress, financial disrupt and unexpected chaos have been a blessing in disguise, but have forced Matilda into overdrive.

She’s talking louder and faster than ever, saying things that I’ve read and heard a million times – a constant barrage of little reminders, bouncing around in my brain.

“What are you waiting for? Leap dummy, and the net will appear. Don’t stress; it was money well spent. Maybe you’ve been focusing on the wrong things. (and people) Stop doing the same thing and hoping for different results. Who gives a damn what others think? Do your own thing. Do what scares you. Do something significant. Today is the first day of the rest of your life.  Everything happens for a reason. Keep moving forward; you don’t have time to feel sorry for yourself. Do what brings you joy. Cut your losses. It’s time to move on and move up. Stop dreaming, start doing. Be true to yourself. It’s never too late. Stop over thinking. Get busy.”

See what I mean? She’s chatty. And pushy. But she’s pushing me in the right direction. Away from uncertainty and toward the work I was meant to do. For years, I have ignored my calling, while focusing on career and random opportunities.  I’ve decided to stop feeling guilty for wasting time and to come to terms with the fact that misadventures are still filled with “adventure”. That everything that has happened in my life over the past few years (and the upheaval of the past few weeks) has happened for a purpose. It has all led me to where I am today.

So, it’s time to get busy. I can hear Matilda now, (today, she sounds a lot like Mae West) she’s reminding me that “You only live once. But if you do it right, once is enough.”

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